rebirth

The sun is out.
The birds are singing.

Today, folks, is a great day.

In reading a few of my last posts, one would probably wonder why the hell I'm doing this at all. I could almost agree. The first 6 months of this year have given me nothing but heartache and stress.

Luckily, my major running events are done for the year. Those are the ones that take the largest toll on my body. I'll still do a few longer runs of 50-75 miles, but nothing major. From here on out, it's about getting Bike Nasty and Swim Hardened.

I am stressed financially, physically, and mentally, in getting to Mexico, but I always remember this.
In any movie...any book that has to do with the pursuit of dreams, things are always terrible for a long, long time...until they get better.

William Feather once said:
"Success seems to be largely a matter of hanging on after others have let go"

There's a reason only a few people on the planet do this. It is so far from easy just GETTING to the start line...let alone what happens after the gun goes off.

Less than 5 months now, and I'm starting to visualize how sweet that finish line is going to be. I feel good and ready to start putting some monster bike mileage in.

Enough failure, it's time for success.

Thanks for reading.
krp

Three Times, No Charm

I need to write this...for my brain.

This was kind of my worst nightmare.

I'd never DNFed before the Triple. Here I am now, DNF number 3, clinging to my back like King Kong on the Empire State.

A DNF in an Ultra has a much longer story than "I couldn't do it." Unfortunately, to outsiders of the sport, that's what it might look like: just excuses.

You know what it makes me feel like in their eyes? A bullshitter.

I believe in myself...and some people might say that's all that matters. Unfortunately, it's not at this level.
When you have people that have sponsored you with their product, time, services, or money, the expectation is rightfully some sort of result.

I'm extremely disappointed and humbled. This is the "fight or flight" moment.
My back's against the wall. I certainly don't feel excited about asking for sponsorship. I have zero results this year, thus far.
It's time for me fight. I have to focus on my limiter: flexibility. That's the ONLY thing stopping me in these races.
No structural issues. No mental weakness. Just tendons and muscles.

If you've supported me and continue to support me no matter what, I thank you. You are the true friends and my inspiration to keep fighting.

Thanks for reading.

krp