Fight

Pain

The menace lurks
I go against the grain
Responsibility unshirked

Sacrifice: not in vain

Pain

Initially acute
And soon all-consuming
life around me mutes
The monster staying, looming

Pain

The black spot unshining
Amoeba of reaching fingers
devouring... dining

unwelcome guest lingers

Pain

Rigormortis,I'm stiff
Eyes red, I grimace
One year of "what if"
It's time to finish

10x

The Adventure That Was 2010

I only need one sentence for an introduction into the recap of the adventure that was this year:

2010 was a direct result of the fire in my blood created by my DNF at the Lake Anna Triple Iron.
The older I get, the more I realize how true the old saying "everything happens for a reason" is. I used to hate that saying, but that DNF was the best thing to happen to me.

I spent only a couple weeks with my tail between my legs after the Virginia 3x.
After I was healed, I went right to work at Northern PT.
Troy put together a collection of exercises that would prevent the injury from happening again.

Mortland and I kicked off the New Year with an Overnight Treadmill 50 Mile Run in mid-january. It was mind-numbing. I said I would never do it again, but I cannot guarantee that anymore. It was a good mental toughness exercise.

A couple of months later in March, I agreed to do a winter Death Race. I made it through the first night in some tough cold, lugging logs up a mountain with no snowshoes among other things, and after realizing that it wasn't actually a run, but a task-oriented race, I dropped. I simply wasn't prepared for that type of race.
Funny, I told the TV cameras I wouldn't do it again, but that was technically a DNF...and that makes me want to go back.

In May, I attempted a 100 mile run at the same venue in Vermont, and experienced one of the strangest weather events of my entire life. The race started in the morning, in cold and pouring rain. As the day went on, the course turned into shin-deep mud all the way around. For some reason, I had no energy, and dropped around 35 miles in, opting to drink beer with Sperv and Anneliese. We sat on top of the mountain, helping other racers. The afternoon saw thunderstorms, then freezing temperatures, then hail, and snow with driving winds.

Only a couple weeks later, as part of the Northern PT team, I used the Aroostook Relay For Life as a training event...running 50 miles through the night on a quarter mile track. This was one of my favorite events, because I got to blend my favorite activity with my favorite people. To run all night, with some company with friends here and there throughout the night, was just awesome.

10 days later, I attempted to run a 200 mile relay solo. All of the previous racing turned out to be too much, and I only made it 55 miles before having some pretty big IT band problems, dropping. Nevertheless had a super weekend with Nicole and my mom, bar hopping in Killington.

By this time, I had transitioned to living in a tent, because I knew money would be tight for my races later in the year.
I spent the summer living everywhere.
Anywhere I felt like staying. I also became very close with people who opened their homes to me on numerous occasions.

The next event was 24 Hours Of Great Glen in August. I went there with great confidence, having done a lot of ultra cycling, and was humbled. Only 13 hours into the event I was TOASTED. Mountain biking is a lot different than road cycling, that's for sure! Nevertheless, I REALLY enjoyed that event, despite my lackluster performance. Didn't matter, really. I don't care about results...just finishing the goal events.

September was the Double Iron. Battled some heat and a crappy attitude to finish injury-free, which was the ultimate goal. The perfect primer for the BIG event.

I used the next 2 months to wrap my head around a Quintuple Iron, and make the necessary training adjustments.
Turns out, the mental preparation worked, because it hurt a lot less than I thought it would. There was never any doubt during the 5x that I wouldn't be back for the Deca in 2011.

The amount I learned about training and racing this year is just out of this world, and I cannot wait to apply it to next year, when I will actually try to RACE the events, not simply finish.
I still continue to battle the balance of life. While it would be nice to train full time and not work, that is just not a feasible option. The bills must get paid, and ultra events don't exactly get you rich.

2010 was easily one of the best years of my life.
Following three tough years, I guess it was time for it.
Thank you all so much for your support, and thanks for reading!

krp

Coming of Age in Monterrey: The Quintuple Report

It's 7:30 on a warm evening in Mexico.

My eyes and face burn from extended chlorine exposure.
It's a challenge to hold my tired body up on my bike, while I attempt to follow the police car through Monterrey- my escort from pool to race course.

I've just swum 12 miles and am now preparing my mind to race for the next 5 days.

I pass an armed guard every hundred feet during the mile from the pool to the Olympic Training Center, and each one mumbles something into his two-way radio, probably saying "He's here", or "He's on his way to you".

The police escort signals for me to go left, I enter through a gate, coast 150 yards, and the sudden realization that it's going to be a long week sets in.
I won't be leaving this course for a while.

Before I start the 560 mile bike ride, I grab my MP3 player, a few drinks that I pre-made before the race, and snag some beans and rice from the kitchen located directly off the course.

I pedal around the course for a few hours, trying to mentally relax my arms and shoulders, which are totally spent from the swim.
Not being able to use MP3 players in the USA, the new feeling of being in an event with my own music in my ears is a HUGE boost.
I'm rapping and swearing out loud and loving every minute of it. Probably the other guys are thinking,"Who is this crazy American?!"

Around midnight, I'm pretty tired and itchy still from the chlorine, so I choose to run up to my dorm room- only a hundred yards from the course- for a nice shower and nap.

Set my alarm for 3am. 2.5 hours sleep, right? Wrong.
I sleep through the alarm and bolt upright at 6am.
Make that 5.5 hours of sleep.

I think, Shit. Nothing to worry about really. It's so early in the event that probably the extra sleep will help me long-term.

DAY 2
I grab some breakfast from the kitchen and jump on my bike, knowing today is going to be one loooooooooooooong day.
It's surprisingly cold compared to what I expected. Maybe high 40s or low 50s.
As the sun comes up, the course(which is not closed to the public) starts filling up with runners, bikers, and rollerbladers.
And ducks... which have an uncanny habit of ambling across the course every morning around 8. They have ZERO fear of anyone, and there are near-collisions every lap and every day until 9 or 10am.
Jorge, the Race Director, had mentioned them at the Opening Ceremonies: "I can't control them. It is nature. If you hit them, we will cook them!"
Excellent.

Every hour and a half to two hours, I have to stop, make my own drinks, and get my own food.
By tonight(night two), I find this to be extremely time intensive and very counter-productive.

In regards to being crewless, normally I would be just getting into a rhythm and feeling great, when I would have to stop.
Getting back into the same mindstate is never easy.
A few other teams(Team Kurtz and Griesen) helped me out here and there, but I could definitely see the benefit of having a crew.

I ride some more, and again retire to the dorm room; this time around 4am.
Shower.
Sleep for an hour and half, and I'm back at it.

DAY 3
Another long day on the bike ahead.
My morale isn't that good. I know that I have to go through at least one more night of cycling.

Most times, I consider myself a night owl...but knowing that I am about to spend the next 22 hours on my bike saddle, with my ass already sore, isn't the best mood-lifter.

Not an easy day. My neck is tired. My hands going numb. My legs feel ok, but overall body and mental fatigue are definitely setting in.

The night is exponentially worse.
I'm frustrated every time I have to dismount for food and drink...for a number of reasons.
1) Everytime I get off the bike, I'm not going forward.
2) My rhythm and mental state gets broken.
3) Removing my aching ass from the saddle hurts, but putting it BACK ON the saddle is 20 times worse.

Wayne Kurtz, racing the Deca, rolls up to me around 11pm and we talk for a while. It's great to finally meet him and chat. We discover that we have a lot in common.
By 2am, I'm smoked, so I opt to hit the room for a shower and nap.

Day 4
An hour and a half of sleep, and all of a sudden, I'm happy again...mostly because I know that this is the morning I finish the bike.

By 4am I'm back on the course, with a bowl of last night's beans and potatoes stuck between my aerobars. By this point, I've mastered the art of eating full meals while pedaling away.
I've got Deca guys asking me every couple laps,"How long 'til you're done the bike?" They all look at me funny when I tell them I have no idea.
The whole week, I've made it a point to NOT know where I'm at mileage-wise. Mostly because in my head, I don't want to know until I'm close to done.
It's a good thing.
Less mind games with myself, calculating and extrapolating lap times.

Around 11am, I know I've got to be close.
The timing dudes confirm this, and I just start going nuts. I'm so excited to be getting off the bike that I start ripping off 3:30 laps. I get so caught up in the moment that I actually finish the bike and start doing another lap without realizing it. After a half lap, they cut across the course and tell me I'm all done.

Cool.
I take my time, eat a good meal, and change into my running gear.
My mood is super high, but tempered by the fact that now I have to run twice as far as I ever have before.

When I think of the bike, I think of miserable nights. Remembering the run, it was afternoons that hurt the most because of the extreme heat.

This first afternoon sets the tone for the rest of them. It is HOT.

I run for about 4 hours before sitting under the tent for a few minutes with a number of drinks and food... just trying to get cool and counting the seconds until sundown.

Completely SICK of beans, rice, and insect-covered food, I order a big salty pizza from Domino's and run until it arrives.
Once there, I fill a bottle with Powerade, grab the entire box of pepperoni and ham Americana, and have the happiest lap of the entire race.
To say it tastes amazing would be the biggest understatement in the history of the world. The Danish Team gets a kick out of the whole scene, and somehow a picture of me with the pizza that they take ends up in a Danish newspaper.

For the first night of running, I just focus on being happy. I do a bunch of laps with Nick Mallett from Australia, which is great because he is coming off the bike and because of that, in a really good mood.
Sometimes I'm annoyed by other people in good spirits, but tonight it's contagious.

At 4am, I hit the tent for a quick nap.

Day 5
Another 1.5 hours of sleep, and this time, I really am not enthused about starting my day. I get some crappy coffee from the kitchen and sit down to a breakfast of about 4 million pancakes.
My policy when I'm not happy is "Eat everything until morale improves."

It kind of works this time.
I don't remember a lot about Day 5... only that it was long and hot and my feet were beginning to swell.
Every couple of laps I would lay down for 5 minutes with my feet up. It seemed to do the trick in the short term.

By nightfall, I just want to be done. I make a mental commitment to myself to not sleep, because sleeping means not moving forward...and what the heck, I can't feel much worse anyways.

At 4am, my feet are aching terribly. It's not a muscular thing.
I can feel it in my bones. I take off my shoes and my feet seem to just balloon out. All I can envision is a million little stress fractures.
No way I'm going anywhere for a while.

Knowing I only have another marathon left, I sleep for a good 3 hours.
Despite my feet aching, I'm kind of happy.
I figure I could be done by noon or 1pm.
A 5 hour marathon should be easy, right??
Wrong.

That last marathon was the physical equivalent of nails down a chalkboard.
Every step hurt worse than the next.

As noon rolls around, I realize that a finish is still hours away. My mind and body are so tired. It is impossible to focus on the fact that I am DEFINITELY going to finish; I can only focus on the fact that I'm not finishing NOW.

I spend a good two hours being a miserable prick. I am angry at not being done, and being kind of irrational, that is, until out of nowhere, I realize that I am within 10 miles of the finish line.
All of a sudden, my legs and feet and shitty attitude don't matter anymore.
I put the hammer down and don't stop for drink or food or bathroom breaks.

On my second to last lap, I see Wayne on his bike, and ask if I can use his American flag to take on my last lap around. Obviously he says yes.
His crewman Rick hands it to me and I start crying immediately, because I know within the next fifteen minutes, this whole journey is going to be over.

The last lap is still surreal, 2 and a half weeks later.

All of the bikers in the Deca and Double Deca are whistling and congratulating me and just making a huge raucous.
Everything that happened within the last year ebb and flow through my mind.
The sacrifices financially and socially.
The tent living.
The couch crashing.
Everyone and everything that had gotten me to this point.

Wayne stops mid lap to give me a hug. A couple minutes later, Eileen does too.
The last half mile, I run some, walk a little, laugh, cry, and take it all in.
It's a celebration of the event...the whole year, actually, and crossing the finish line is a culmination of it all.

While I have larger plans for 2011, I know that this finish will always be one of the most special because during the year leading up to the event, I learned who my real friends were, and how much a community of friends and family can help one person achieve their goals.

I will always remember what people did for me to get to Monterrey. What a year.

krp

Maybe I didn't realize the longterm implications of the Tentman Experience.

I've just spent the last 5 nights in a Seattle hotel.
Comfortable beds, but wow.

Sleeping in a bed messes with my body. My back is stiff. My shoulder hurts.
Is it sleeping in a bed, or not training much the last few days? I dunno.
I'm just glad I have Northern PT to right all my wrongs. Very excited to get there on wednesday, catch up with Troy and the gang, and get some work done.

The Big Race is but a mere 20 days away. Gotta train REALLY hard this week.

I've done the planning, the training, answered all the questions, and yet... The gravity of what I'm about to attempt has not sunk in yet.

People ask if I'm getting excited. I will generally say yes, but more than anything, the underlying emotion is fear and focus.

I went to the Lake Anna 3x last year pretty much thinking I could do anything I wanted. Limits were found, and my body came apart.

Knowing that I am not invincible has given me a different take from last year as I make my final preparations for Monterrey.

I must be more organized, and more mature in my attitude towards the distance. Respect.
Being crewless, the need to stay mentally sharp in order to feed myself correctly will be critical.
I guess this means less sleepwalking.

Fear and focus.
I think I'm in the right frame of mind.

krp

Free For the Taking

FREE to a good home:
Race Nightmares.
Come take them off my hands.

Last night, I was in a Double Iron in Africa.
It included a gnarly obstacle course in the middle of the run, and I got the bright idea to do it barefoot. Blood was gushing out of my feet, and everyone but me was concerned about it, until I passed out from blood loss.
Race: Over.

Let's see, what else is free?
A couple of publications doing stories on your's truly.
The Country Courier in central Maine, and a free Sports paper up here in Aroostook County.

I'm finding that what I love the most about the exposure has nothing to do with me. In honesty, it feels weird to have my ugly mug and name posted on stuff.

It is very cool to give my friends and family who've sponsored me some free advertising, and know that I could be helping their businesses out through my exploits. I'm having a lot of fun with it, and look forward to getting more efficient and better at it.

Just getting to the 5x is an extreme challenge... With the high risk of injury during training, expenses, and life in general.
I feel like with all of this support, compounded by being the only USA representative, there's no way I can fail.
ONE MONTH UNTIL RACE TIME

ramble on

I've been glued to the live results at the double/triple this weekend. Congrats to Beat from Switzerland for just winning the Triple. I get to meet/race with him in the 5x in Mexico.
Also nice to see homeboys Sauerbrey, Kurtz, and Pasceri throwing down.
NO WAY I'm not going down to the 3x next year.
Gotta get that monkey off my back for sure.

Not much has changed.
The plane ticket to Mexico is bought, and I'm continuously bloated, like roadkill in the hot sun as I attempt to gain weight for the big race.

It's definitely harder to gain weight than I thought, but I have learned something important from all this over-eating.
Even though I'm constantly feeling the need to purge in one direction or the other, I have more energy from day to day when I train. More power.
Also, there's less daily bonking...which was always a problem.

Could it be possible I haven't been eating enough all along.. or am I just getting stronger as my muscles rebuild from the Double Iron?

Both? Either way, you can bet I'm going to keep at it and see what happens.

35 days away now.

I will have no crew, which will not make it any easier...but it can be done. More stops though. I'll look at it as an advantage. Don't want to get horned up and go too hard on the bike.

Crunch time.

seriously? seriously

Well, I'm pretty much recovered from the 2x.

Let me spin you a tale of the next 3 weeks of my life:
Eat. Lift. Eat. Lift. Eat. Loooooong workout, eat.
Swim.
No sleep.

It is time to drop the hammer down. Hard.

I need to gain at least 8-15 pounds, so that my body doesn't completely eat itself by day 3 of the Quintuple.
Even after the Double Iron, Troy at Northern PT couldn't believe how much smaller my legs got..just from that race.

Ha, imagine it. I have to gain weight, but at the same time complete the longest bike ride, and longest swim that I ever have done-just for training.
Add to that an enhanced metabolism from sleep deprivation, and I would say it's an uphill caloric battle.
I love a challenge.
When I do succeed, I'll be about as jacked as I have ever been at about 185 pounds.

This has been a banner year, really, despite my DNFs. I still consider it a success. In the last 12 months:
-Triple Iron (7.2 mile swim, 336 bike, 34 miles of run completed)
-50 mile Treadmill run, overnight
-Winter Death Race...lived through the night and called it quits
-35 mile run at Mcnaughton Ultras
-50 Mile overnight run at Aroostook Relay For Life
-55 mile run at Green Mountain Relay
-24 Hours of Great Glen mountain Bike Ride
-Double Iron finish (4.8 mile swim, 2224 bike, 52.4 mile run)
-More long bike rides (100+ miles) than I can shake a stick at
That's well over 1 ultra event a month.
I'm ready to cap it now with my biggest finish ever.

Donations beginning to come in. You all have no idea how much this means to me.
It motivates me to train longer, and keeps me going when I am tired from sleep deprivation and don't want to go anymore.

41 days. I'm so ready to go to Mexico and hurt.

krp